filling in the blanks

work week is over,scheduled accounts anyway,sales tomorrow, optimism is in force,hehehe.been awhile since i have been on so lets fill in the blanks,to the best of my ability,smile.ok,friday sucked at la velas,talk about dead, definitely should have done something else with my 8 dollars,but band was ok.now, Saturday that was rocking and only 5 bucks for the cover,probably spent 15 dollars total,but well worth it ,people were kicking it up and band sounded better then previous night.it did not hurt that i danced a little either,andddddddddd got a couple of compliments,yeah that's right,the old man was doing it up,quietly and to the side,but having a blast.a guy that i had seen break dancing earlier,him and another went to war with each other and came up to me.he asked why i don't get on the floor,you know i dance by the bar and then asked if i was married,to which i replied yes.told him i did not get on floor cause i am happy here,keeps me from getting too wild,and the women don't bother me while i am not on floor.said he could understand sometimes he liked to just do his own thing and complimented me on my style,said him and some friends were watching me earlier and could not figure out why i was not breaking out on the floor. that's why his second question was about being married,said i would be welcome with his group anytime,and they would make sure i was not bothered.yeahh,aint gonna lie,made my ego feel good,ran into a couple of guys i knew from stetsons and shooting pool before,rapped with them and called it a night,actually it was a good night.sunday,was a something else,i really wanted to watch the pats play,which is so totally not like me,even thought about putting off work,but after watching for awhile,i felt guilty about not going to work so went on in.i pulled into Bristol store,just to get coffee,they thought i was there to start on floor and copped an attitude,put me in a bad mood,most people,like to see me ,clerks anyway,they get out of mopping the floors,hehehe.well naturally,that got the old mind going but had a good time at the next store and when i got back to Bristol she was in a better mood so all good. every time i go to Tallahassee i wish for a radio so bad,i dream of the day,maybe in a couple of months.oh yeah,forgot but got the shed done Monday morning,after i got back,i swear i think too much,got too thinking about all my big plans when i first got it,gonna set up wood craft area,do this do that,never did,and no one to blame but me.got it all done,and it was ok,with in myself,i guess i am learning to let go,try to do better and accept things,when necessary.the rest of the week until tonight was just taking care of business,i love doing my floors,hahahah,i am sick,it feels so good when people compliment you,and the end result is a thing of pride.my sleep pattern is driving me nuts though,i am trying to go to sleep,when i get home,however i start reading my books and stay up too late,duhhhhh.then i get upset cause i sleep too late,reading kim harrisons,black magic sanction,now and earlier this week read,enemies,by lee hogan,the conclusion to bellarius,i had been waiting for from the book store and also,william gibsons,pattern recognition,which was an interesting novel about a woman who had the abilty,to tell if a trademark would work for different corporations. that's a rather shallow description,but it is an interesting read.after the girl with the dragon tattoo trilogy,which wrapped me so well,i think i am hungry for more,have been considering buying the rest of the mission earth series,by ron hubbard,just so i have a long read.it consists of 10 novels and would keep me going for awhile,hahaha.you know i was just looking over what i had wrote so far and i just feel good about life,sometimes it only takes a little thing to remind you of the how fortunate you are.hell i am sitting here,worried about belly getting big,and there are some out there starving,i have the joy of knowing things have been getting better,not easy but better,life in being somewhat of a challenge is actually,more enjoyable.i am not going to b/s myself,sure i would love to hit the lottery,but i do enjoy the challenges that come my way.even if i don't say win every-time,i don't sell myself short,and am proud of the fact,i am making some headway,maybe not a lot,but,i am pulling ahead.a while back,my anger took up too much of my space,and today well,i am smiling more,and life,i think i am going to live it more then exist in it.sooooooooooo,on that note,be happy,and remember,if tomorrow comes,you have an opportunity for a fresh start,in something that's important,if only to you,but then it is your life you are living isn't it,later,get some love,smile a little smile and know it can get better.