the world is full of good intentions

   Finally, i wrote the letter to the new president of Express Lane, now i just have to e- mail or send some how.My wife was laughing with me as it took me almost 2 hours but ,i did get it done.I am watching "RAISE YOUR VOICE" a movie with music, made in 2004. As long as there is music i am happy,ahhh the sweetness of the song as it twists you inside. Youth its promise of dreams to be full filled ,a future of promises yet known. I laugh ,only a week or so till i am 58, but, check this out, the same holds true for me, hehehe. I simply have to keep putting those good intentions to work, which i will admit is not always easy. Actually, i am probably my biggest enemy, of course money would help, but it is what it is.

   Ha,ha,ha,ha, today we used up the last of our cash on hand, to ensure that a restraining order, for a friends abusive husband, got sent out overnight, 34 bucks,may not seem like a lot,but that was all we had. So i had to cash in our change which came to an amazing 27.00 bucks, plus the 5 in my wallet,minus the price of pads, for wifey,i have 25.00.  Now that will last us till friday , i hope,hahaha. Now thats if i don't have to buy some stripper to do a job for county, but i will come up with something if necessary.Its funny as the girl in the show just said,this is the scariest, fearful, and best thing that ever happened to me. Even if it all goes wrong, i will make an attempt on my intentions. 

  It has been an eventful day in ways, i had put my propane buffer in the shop, the other day and yesterday they told me the magneto was too far gone,and it was beyond repairing, today i took another one in and we will see what will be, i almost threw that one in the dump a week ago, but no room, someone was looking after me. I also had to put in my side by side, ole faithful, darn thing must be 8 years old, loud as hell but it runs, kinda like me,hehehe. I had to borrow 50 bucks but it is out, and at least i can work if it becomes available.Then to top it off, i went whole hog and put my electric high speed in, told him i wont need till next week,if propane is not fixable but, what the hell, at least it will be running, if i need it and can afford to get it out, hehehe.

   Just, put on my show, Defiance, missed it the other night, gotta love in demand, but that bill, oh well, gotta keep the wife happy,hahaha. i think i like the show because it is full of people who keep on rebounding from the bottom. Ahem , talking about finances,electric bill just came in over 200 bucks, I quietly flipped out , and unabashedly told everyone the air conditioner was only to be used when someone was home and frugally, unless ,of course its the wife. Bill has gone from 130 to 213,thats crazy, i don't care what anyone says. 

   I did get a call from the sales tax lady, she is actually pretty nice, but since i owe, scary too, unintentionally, i thought she knew i am out of work, but evidently not,so will have to get together with her before my b-day or else.

   Kenny, who used to work with me, called me today, just touching base i guess, he told me he was working at save-a-lot, bagging and that the company who stripped their floors charged 1100 bucks, hell i would do it for less.I guess thats part of my problem, the reality that worries me is i no longer have a crew. I have been assured that if needed they will come, sounds funny doesn't it, we shall see what will be if or rather when the time comes. I have to admit the future can be scary but then i am sure it will be rewarding. i am going to attempt to add the letter i wrote to the new president of Express Lane ,if it is here great , if not i tried,hehehe.Goodnite,have a good day,love to u and remember to trust, and believe in yourself, me.