pixels

       Ok,where and how to start.Duhhhhhh,lordy I must be nuts,hehehe. Well, i just watched the movie Pixels,for the first time,well about 2/3 of it and the kid in me loved it,not where she kills the smurf,they are adorable. It was just a good fun movie,at the right time.
       Today was a good day,with a rough patch,but i am smiling now,hehe,i wonder ,will I ever grow up? Sometimes I just dont think so,others want to grow up,conquer the world,become rich and famous. Myself,wellllll, i would not mind a little bit of fame, worldwide, of course,hehehe. Actually i have recieved the accolades that mean most to me,I am loved ,respected,sometimes called crazy, and eccentric by those that share a common denominator with me,love.Family ,friends, my peers,,in my world of people close to me,I am cared for.When i have a problem, I am blessed by the fact there is usually someone who will listen,with a desire to make my world better.
       My day,without making it too detailed. Woke up,took wife to finish her job,came home watched the stock market,sold a few shares,100.00 worth, about 9:30,went to help her finish the job,came home and watched the market till it closed,taking cat naps during.Picked up a check,which enabled me to pay for cigs and get my machine out out of the shop,broke now,hehe,really must have more desire for money,hehe. Visited my brother,man that boy talked my ear off, not normal for him , but it was great just listening.Went to do the floor at the piggly wiggly express,and was dancing as i worked,it had been a wonderful day.Reality check,wife called asking in an accusatory manner if I used her 20 dollar beal coupon,,and I did not,but what an argument,dug the reciept out,showed it to her and we are back to where we were not long ago. Sad,but this too is life.More on that another time. Oh, met the new owner of Southern,where i get supplies,this is going to be interesting I am sure.
      Eyes are twinkling and a smile with a touch of a smirk on my lips,as we leave the duldrums of ensuring my existence,flying to my own Never-never land. Peter pan am I ,with my Tinkerbell secretely inside, flying high,through blue skies,dark clouds,to dance on the light of colored stars,fairy silver,oceanic blue, firey red ,molten orange and teasingly drawing my feet across hungry black stars, thirsting to drink me in,while tinkerbells music keeps me afloat,
      I try,with my lousy memory,to remember when last I felt, so much in a simple,innocent hug.To an observer it would appear nice, but not all that,to be involved in it, a dream that became reality,fantasy unlocked,exotically erotic,sensual,beyond lust, merging turned liquid flowing into another,warmth cocooning inside,and out,lost in a slipstream,riding emersed with no thought of drowning,no struggle,not even of the thought this will end,a gift given with no thought from the other,except in innocence,so natural,so quick that there was no time for resistance,the ability to say no or stop,prevented by that touch, An estacy, that had been dreamed of in thoughts of another,now buried in yesterdays,captured me unwittingly through another, with a simple thought for any who read this. When,a dream, becomes real,when lifes beauty can be shown in such a simple gesture and all is that slipstream ride,only then will I stop feeling sorry for the fact,that irregardless of who you are, you have not experienced the beauty of my slipstream ride.
      Defenseless, afterwards I rush to erect some form of protection,stating I try to keep my distance,so as not to cause any problems, yet admitting i have always felt a connection,throwing up a shield with words of daring,when in all honesty,even in my fear,I wish her to fall off the edge of this world,entering mine.Knowing it will not be,the edge of the moment sharper,finer than a cold wind through an unseen crack.Nothing is lost,when what has been gained is immeasurable,unfathomable,and beautiful. Beyond all description.
      Amazment,keeps rearing,why? Satisfied, If there is to be nothing else,this would be enough.