lets do this-time

        Time, a unit or measurement that has been devised by man so we can mark moments of importance to us.Time,those events of emotional change which occur without any regard for time affecting our emotional being,unmeasurable in their spontaneous,unexpected, and overpowering ability to change our outlook on life.Occurances,where time ,as measured by man has no meaning,a shift where  a second becomes a moment,five minutes fly by to fast to comprehend the passage,and
actually defined by the event,time here does not exist in a way that it can be measured by science,the event occuring redefining it by its impact upon who am i am,the shift into this other time measured by changing who i am, reborn in some manner. Small changes,unnoticed by all, to changes noticed by many.
         Emotional i am,with no shame in that. I measure my life not by the the time of the atomic clock.Measurement of my life has been through the slipstrean of the other time ,where time does not exist to be measured by science but the impact of emotion,through an act,or thought.
         Good or bad,its affect is one that changes who i am,its effect,unmeasurable,sometimes life altering,at other times,momentary but always,always,evicting some change in who i am.Rarely is it a moment that can be measured by science,the explosion occuring with swiftness like the sting of a bee, slipping into that undefinable time stream.
         I am smiling,just had to go take a leak,and coming out looked in the mirror, my hair is kinda flying up from laying on the couch and watching tv. Inside of me i feel like there is a big smile painted,as i have experienced one of slipstreams in time.A good one,and i know in all honesty I dont feel like I am as old as science says,yet a photo has also informed i am,hehe. 2:20 am and i am like a kid,with the knowledge I am an adult, an older one, ok i said it. 60,I am ,I wrote that just to see if i could,haha,but be damned if i believe it or act it.
        I looked at the date on my last post and could not believe it has been so long,not that the time just slipped away,or that there has not beem plenty to write about.Honestly, i think i was just scared,
of being honest,because here i dont lie,kinda defeats the purpose when you lie to yourself,of being judged,and also the not liking what i read after i post it.
        When i began this blog,I aint gonna lie I wanted people,I know to read it.Now I sit here and wonder if that was really a good idea, truth can be a bitch,hehe.My truths may not concurr with anothers but its my blog and they can dispute it it but i have the right to state what i believe,hehe.
       Life is beautiful,not always and there have been some really bad things that have happened in my life since i last posted,but there is a beauty in just living life.The bad things well,they just serve to make the ordinary,beautiful,and the the beautiful things, amazing.
       I really should get some sleep, I have to get up at seven and do the socially correct thing of being responsible,hehe.i turn the tv off sometimes to make sure i go to sleep sometimes,and cant believe how that little act makes me feel like an adult,cause i really would rather stay up and watch it ,hehe.
      I,feel so silly,I have yet to have said one thing about why i am writing again and feel like a kid with a secret,that only he knows,the unveiling will be piece by piece,but just as a reminder to myself,hehe,let s seeeeeeeeeeeee.
      Clouds,purple,red,blue and grey,soft winds carress skin,eyes roam the heavens,a smile in evolution,warmth bathing me,as the clouds part,a ray of sunshine on my body just parked,a singular ray all on its own,found me ,warmed me and in that brief moment,time has gone,and the slipstream is
here.
      Anyone else may not understand,but I will,and now i am smiling with laughter in my heart,and in my private moment of sinful arrogance,i say ,not bad, Marino,not bad at all. hehehehehe