truth

    the whirlwinds of tumultuous thought placed in physical form,through writing,impossible!!!!!!at least my minds thoughts,running here and there,i can only put down the skeleton,bare bomes,of shadowy remnants of what i remember out of the many thoughts that flee across my mind.not even necessarily the most important,but those which i recollect,due to their impact and  my inability to remember the rest,beyond their birth.maybe they will re occur to me later or not,but they were there,an action i have but a glimpse,and one in that i am sure the thought was of terrible importance,if just for a micro second,but the flash is gone,.its bright light reflecting off other thoughts,the impact though unknown by me ,its action affecting  and directing my thoughts with an unseen,unnoticed ,yet strong exertion of force on my conscious thoughts!!!!!!life,mine,at any rate influenced by so many forces,that i may not even consciously be aware of,their mysterious extertions,unkown by me,the cause and affect of what makes me ,who and what i am.the occasional moments of enlightemnent,when i actually am made aware of their existence,or that moment of being dumfounded by a truth,i am actually already aware of,lo,here is the, beauty of mind,thought and emotion revealed.in that moment,i am aware of my potential,the gift of being a human and the joy of being alive.to tap even for a brief splinter of time the potential of what could be,is a glorious shout out to the universe,a thank you for who i am.not as much as before the term,a simple man,is used,primarily because we have become aware that man is not simple.on occasion i admit i wish i was simpler than i am,hell the complexity of my life,due to the person i have become,with all these thoughts at times can be over whelming.i create situations where a straight line is probably the best answer,and end up confusing myself by creating a cloud of nimble but unfortunately insignificant thoughts in an attempt to over dramatize,over think a situation,where truth,already known,seeks to hide.dont i ramble on well,hehehehe.still avoiding,isnt lfe a bitch sometimes,especially if we are honest enough to admit,its our fault,the truth we dont wish to face or the fear of being honest with ourself.damn,i can surely dance cant i,hahahaha.ok,guess i am not  going to say anymore or enlighten this but yes,i had one of those moments today,this morning actually.it is like ,you are just having conversation ,when lo and behold out of no where you speak a truth and its simple honesty sends you quietly reeling,with the simplicity of that truth.a tornado sweeping all your defenses away,before they were even erected,because in the pure simplicity of truth,there was no time to erect them.i think i talk too much,hahahaha.thats all for now,i admit ,i am acting like a coward,but it is enough for me,i just wanted to remind myself of this moment this morning and if it is important enough this tid bit of info will do it for me,i am sure you are thinking,and maybe you are right,you may even know what i am talking about,truth,it is a pain,and yet it is sweet.