Toucans,a club in mexico beach called me today about doing their floors,and hooked up with a convience store earlier this week so all in all a good week as far as getting more work.i am gonna try to get the contract for some hair salons,the floors have been looking good until the last month or so,and with spring break around the corner i am hoping they want the floors to look their best.it wont hurt to try anyway,who knows maybe its my turn.
i had hoped to go to spinnakers last night,it was their grand opening for the season,but with finances being the way they are,i had to blow it off,there is always some other time,got my whole life ahead,the power of positive thinking,hehehe.i probably will go to la velas tonight,i am not sure.being realistic about it,was thinking earlier about the reason i want to go,i know i enjoy the atmosphere,everybody having a good time and i admit i enjoy it when i do work up the courage to do my little dancing thing.honest truth of it is i just enjoy it all i guess,and even though i do want the companionship of people,the fear of women i have,yes its true they make me nervous they do,keeps me a little stand offish from them all.but i still enjoy it even if i don't stay long,not as young as i used to be,besides i don't want to wake up to late tomorrow,love having a couple of hours before hitting the road to work.
My wife, received her valentine card the day before valentines,but it was all good as she was broke and i had sent her 25 bucks,not much,but made her day,so that was a good thing.too many questions about us,and not sure of anything,i suppose time will tell and until then,it will be what it is.scotty told me today he was going up for the family reunion,riding with his sister,kinda feel displaced but have to work as much as i would like to go and thats the name of that tune.further and further away,i feel,as far as being a part of this family.i would go visit more,but really cant afford the gas,sounds crazy,huh,but i get tired of having to go to the store next door to bum gas and smokes.there is a light shining though,i should be all caught up in a couple of weeks,had a major setback to the tune of 600 dollars,due to ice cream,which made me want to scream,but i figured this was just a test,to see if i would give up and that's not happening.good thing about the extra work is it will help me catch back up,plus the wife's bday is coming up,and i know i would be upset with myself if i could not bring a little surprise for her.
i had left some books for linda,over at christines house,but she told christine she had already read them.she dose not have much money and thought she might enjoy them,as they are fairly expensive,to me anyways.the quandary here is i don't know if she really has read them or just wants to increase the space between us,then of course there is also the fact that i think too much.ever have the feeling that you screw up those things that mean a lot to you and not only do you not know how,but even worse its unfix able.seems that i have a history of doing that,with those things that mean the most to me,then discover the reason i screwed something up too late or that iit was the price of being myself.i dont know all the answers,i do know i very seldom intentionally hurt others,especially emotionally,and do try to big good to people,not acxcording to my conception,but in a manner they would recognize,at least to me and maybe thats where i screw up.i love so much and its ok,maybe someday it will be my turn to feel loved,or maybe i just need to recognize i am loved.i love making others smile,bringing sunshine where there is shadow,and showering others with love,as it helps me in dealing with the solitary path i feel i lead.
oh,yeah,cake is cool enough to frost,so i am going to go for it,eat your heart out,hehehe.buttery white cake with chocolate frosting,um um good,i wish you a pleasant night,and may the breath of my love touch you in way that's good for you,later,me.
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