i smurf you

    Just finished watching the smurf movie,gotta love it,so cute and also has a few lessons for us in it.I smurf you is another way of saying i love you,isnt it amazing that we never tire of coming up with new ways to tell one another we love you.All those little catch phrases,some that endure time or become a part of street language, to exist by those in the know.i love  movies that are happy, take me to apart of my life i had forgotten or reminds me how fortunate i am today.life,damn it is definately not long enough,so much i want to accomplish,do with my life,and love to give. It is different,i think about the people i love ,younger then me whose lives will continue after i am gone, i smile sometimes,thinking of the times i will not be able to share with them,the smile is because it is with optimism and the happiness i am sure they will discover in their lives,I have been blessed with knowing them,thats  a treasure none can take ,well except Alzheimer disease.Myself,i guess thats what always been important,not the money,material things,but the knowledge in my own way i have enrichened some lives,that the memories of me ,while not perfect will reflect a care for others,an appreciation for being alive,my only failing as a human being true to oneself,an inability of belief in myself in matters of love and i guess there is always a price to pay.
   Ok, now as to what i have been doing since my last post on the 9th.Darn i just realized that was exactly 2 weeks ago today,hehehe.Michael and  Michele both had birthdays,and my friend Sal,who i have known for oh sooo long,hehehe.Work has been same,insufficent,but i am working on improving that, finally, i procrastinate until its too late then go crazy trying to fix things, lordy,lordy, will i ever learn, hehehe.Last week i finally worked up the resolve to try and get some more business,i made 7 cold calls,i realize that is not alot,however it is definitely an improvement over nothing.I did 3 one day then 4 on the following day, its mainly just a way to get me to overcome the fear of  doing sales and that rejection thing. i also went to a small business and veterans outreach center,i pass it all the time, think of going in but keep putting it off,so i am a little more proud of myself.Not too complain but 450.00 a week is not cutting it and though i have managed to keep things up,it is definitely time to grow or go as they say.Scotty says we are maintaining,but thats about all we are doing, so i am going to give it a shot,hell if i can figure it out i may get some work ,subbing or trying to get a major contract.Right now,though i am going to just do the cold calls till i can figure out how to get a hold of some of the major contractors.
    DANCE,cant let that go,yes, i have been out every w/e,cost is about 10.00 for the entire w/e,so i dont feel too guilty about that.I only went to Spinnakers this w/e and last,Orange Ave.played this weekend,they were good,the previous weekend,i got my socks rocked by Natalie Stovall. I do not enjoy country music,however ,she managed to turn me a little bit.First of all she is a performer,and she plays the sweetest and sexiest fiddle i have heard in awhile.I confess i was at all 3 shows and when she returns in November, I will be there,anticipating.Who would have ever thought? The w/e previous Spinnaker had a country band,it was a filler i will admit,so bad i left after a couple of songs,going to La Vela, which i have to admit i had not been too in too long.I ran into a couple of people i knew and it was actually a pretty good time.Oh,just remembered ,i actually have footage of me dancing at Spinnakers,a guy recorded me,he was out with a couple of girls and  i guess they thought i was alright.At any rate, he introduced himself to me tried to hook me up with one of the girls ,so i explained i was married and we just talked for a bit which was fun.When Scotty returns i will ask him to put the clip on here.
    Office,oh hell yeah,finally!!!!!Taking the spare bedroom and doing a conversion.I call it the office,but its really going to be a Marino room.My artwork,books ,all those little things that bring pleasure to my senses, a true representation of myself, and it is taking FOREVER,hehehe,and will probably take eternity to complete, all this i say with a smile though, broke,not wanting too settle for anything other then my dream, oh well it will be worth it .Too start with it was this ugly brownish tan that took 3 coats of primer,do you believe it,to get rid of.I did the ceiling first, i had to take part of it down then ended up trying to fix all the dimples in it, finally got that primed,then covered it with a coat of Behr semi gloss pure white,adding a second coat of the same that i had mixed some crystals in, trying to pop it.I think i will probably redo it as i dont think the glitter shows enough, i also discovered the ceiling fan is off center,ughhhh.Oh well,that just gives me an opportunity to come up with something,what i have no idea,hehehe. Paint,ahhh,the colors of the world run through my mind, i believe i have picked out my primary colors,it being a small room the pure white will act as a base.Life is too colorful to stop there however and my artwork while colorful, i am trying to use as an exclamation on the walls while retaining a little bit of playfulness,and seriousness, in the colors of the room.A child given a new toy,thats how i feel about my room, i dont mind the time it will take,the exasperation i experience when confronted with a problem,it is so much FUN!!!Of course i dont have much money,it took me 2 maybe 3 weeks to get the money for the ceiling,i buy a package of glitter a week thats about 8 or 9 bucks,i still have some white that i have had stashed away for a couple of years,still good though.Accent colors, i have three definates and 1 maybe, those will probably take me a couple of months,unless I pick up some extra work.All good though.I spent this week trying to lay out my plan on where to hang my prints and such, you would not believe how difficult it can be trying to put a square on the wall without the proper tools,oh and this week bought a roll of tape.I think it was 8 bucks but it is better then the blue tape as it has a repellent on it for paint that makes your lines crisper. I will post some pictures also,but dont expect too see much till its done.
      Ohhhh,i almost forgot,life changeing news, i have for the first time been getting up at 8 am almost every day,now, for most thats like a soooo,but it has been almost 20 years since i have tried to do this so yup,feeling good about it myself. I guess thats it for now and no i never stop thinking about you,love to all and to all may there be joy in your life,marino.